Dead Fish Swimming

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope."

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

Can we just admit that life totally sucks on some days?

I’m not being schleppy about things. I am actually having a good day, but things and circumstances in others lives are certainly weighing heavy on my heart today.

Actually, it feels like they have been lingering there for a while.

So, when our kids fish died this week, obviously I was very sad.

I woke up on Tuesday morning to our little pet fish floating, upside down, white and not moving. At all. I checked his gills – nothing. I checked his fishy mouth usually active and searching for fishy flake food at the top of the water – nothing.

Since I was up earlier than the kids, I felt compelled to get rid of the evidence and then just explain things later. I fished him out of his bowl with a little scooper and walked the short distance to the bathroom. I took one more quick glance – no movement. I put him in the toilet and reached for the flusher when I saw it…

One single gasp for air.


I quickly scooped him out of the toilet, prepared a fresh bowl and plopped him in there hoping to see a miracle. But he was still upside down. I left for the gym and put him behind a bookshelf so I could explain things to the kids when I got back.

I texted my husband to prepare him too.

When I got back from the gym, I snuck to the area behind the bookshelf so I could take a peak and wouldn’t you know it, that fish was alive. Swimming around his bowl and breaching the surface looking for food.

Now, I am about to get metaphorical and trite and rich in symbolism so if you are out, I’ll give you a few moments to click that little “x” on the top of your browser. For the rest of you, follow along:

If you have even ONE BREATH left, God is not done with you yet. You may be in the toilet of your life battling something that you think is the end: addiction, depression, anxiety, crippling fear, hopelessness, despair, financial crisis or debt, unexpected diagnosis, loss of a loved one, loss of a job, loss of passion, loss of a marriage or relationship, but if you are still breathing, God is not finished with your story. He is not finished with you.

I don’t know what his plans are for you or even for me, but I 100% know that they are to prosper you and to give you hope.

You are still here and there is a reason.


Categories: All The Rest

4 replies

  1. I so needed to hear that right now. Thank you so much for sharing your insight…seriously, I am in tears. Good ones. 😊

  2. 74–and still breathing. Thanks and Bless you, Pytallman!

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